Lately

Lately I have not been great at this blogging thing.

Lets be honest I haven't been great at much lately.

Besides growing a human. 

I am doing AWESOME at that. 

But being awesome at that makes me way less awesome with other things.

WAY less awesome....

So I just decided that Since I haven't posted about anything, really, that we have been up to the past couple months (which hasn't been much) I would just post a ton of pictures. I am not great at capturing moments but I do have some that I have been wanting to share. 

So here we go.

My awesome sister Jamie took some pictures of us on the land behind our uncles farm in Utah.

I LOVE THEM.

It was short and sweet. Which was perfect because we were all exhausted from the road trips we had taken to get there. Jamie was way more exhausted so we made it quick!

MY FAVORITE!!

We had fun, while we were staying at my uncles house, going back and forth from one of his chicken coops to the other having so much fun experiencing something totally different than they were used to.

We were able to take the girls to my Grandpa Dents house and visit. Riley had a lot of fun teasing him. He loved it just as much!

We attempted a 4 generation picture...

And more loving on Great Grandpa Dent.

I caught a candid of my brother, who LOVES to hide from the camera unless he has to and if he cant then you will most likely not get him to smile. Especially this naturally, and especially not in a white shirt and tie! Haha If he finds this out he will kill me! I am risking my life.

We were able to visit the Logan Temple.

The temple my parents were married in.

This temple is gorgeous!

We were only able to walk the grounds but now I am dying to go in.

 Then we came home and Riley started kindergarten. 

Then Mak had her second Birthday.

Lots of presents and fun with grandparents.

Oh and Cake.

And playing mommy with her new baby doll.

And cake...

Then in September my sister- in- law Lana Came home from her mission In Chile! We have had fun Catching up and Shopping!

No pictures.. Cause I stink at it But we have had fun!

Now its October! I cant believe it. I am so glad the end of the year is getting closer and going by so fast! I Just want to have my little boy and hold him and watch him grow up with his sisters! Also I so just want to not be pregnant anymore. haha

Technically

So I know these type of posts usually come with a great profile view of the pregnant woman posting them at the correct amount of weeks along... I don't have one. I have a GREAT profile shot of my belly from a month ago though, just not on this computer.

I am awesome.

So this will just have to do.

This is also from a month ago when we were in Utah at the Logan Temple. Not profile so you cant really tell how monstrous I was (or am) but after I saw this picture I decided that this dress needed to be retired until post-partum.  Seriously, I am sure I flashed a few family members my "inappropriates" while doing Mommy duties while I was at a cemetery. 

What was I thinking? 

I need to stick to maxi dresses.

On topic? Not great at that...

So technically I am supposed to be 25 weeks but Baby Boy has consistently been measuring and developing a week ahead the whole pregnancy. Here's to the hope that Doc will move up the due date a week. I have done this twice now and I can feel my body progressing much faster than it has with either girls pregnancies. I have been feeling braxton hicks contractions since I was 3months and they are getting harder and longer. He is sitting so low already it feels like he has already dropped. I am hoping at this point that he decides to at least stick it out until 37 weeks...

So I decided that I needed to write down how I am feeling and whats happening at this stage in pregnancy before I get any farther and haven't put anything down anywhere.

-I am in pain. Every joint and muscle is working overtime with this one and I am in constant pain. I never had these problems with the other 2 until 9 months.

-I have been craving Chocolate Milk and Corn dogs. Never at the same time but definitely daily.

-This is the point in my pregnancy where NONE of my clothes fit me. Not even the ones I have bought to fit me for a while since found out I was pregnant. I woke up Friday and NOTHING fit. I have a skirt some basketball shorts and a t-shirt. Its great...

-I am still sick. Almost all the time. I haven't thrown up in a few weeks but I got really close yesterday. The sickest I have been in weeks.

-This kid is vicious. Mean and strong. His kicks are already wreaking havoc on my ribs. He is so strong. Dale likes to shake my belly on the rare occasion that he is not active and I honestly get a little scared of waking the beast. I may or may not whine a little every time Dale starts to shake my belly.

-The girls are so excited for their little baby brother. Riley asks me every day "Mom, can we PLEASE go to the hosibal to get my baby brother out of your tummy tomorrow??" I wish it was that easy.

-He already has 2 names. Hiccup and Rudger. Rudger just happens to be his nickname according to Riley. Every time I say the name Rudger she corrects me and says "Its HICCUP mom!" Haha

-We are nowhere near ready for this boy but luckily we still have some time.

Stressful

You know what is SO stressful for me? Having to call people who you pay for services such as cable and telling them you no longer want to give them your money. I go into a cold sweat every time.

So nervous.

I don't know why it bothers me so much when it doesn't phase other people in the slightest.

Even talking on the phone with people I am comfortable talking face to face to gets me nervous. Talking with anyone but my immediate family on the phone makes me nervous like this.

Its ridiculous.

I am ALMOST one of those people that take them up on their (not so) fabulous offers they have for you all of the sudden just so that I don't have to be so nervous. I, however, refuse to be a pushover. I have to make myself angry at them just so I don't feel guilty. I get a little mean and a little pushy!

"CAN I JUST CANCEL? I JUST WANT TO CANCEL. I AM JUST CANCELING!!"

I know it is stupid to feel nervous and guilty. I know I will never hear from them or see them ever and I know how relieved i get when the phone call is over thinking of the money i wont have to pay them anymore but i just cant help it.

I have issues. Please tell me I am not the only one???

What Baby?

I can't believe its been two years.

I can't believe that we have had enough time to go from this...

To this...

Makenna is so grown up. She has gone from babbling constantly to talking constantly. She knows words   and phrases that surprise me every day.

My favorite is 

" Wiwey is at shool... I guess. Daddy is at wowk... I guess"

She says these as she shrugs her shoulders and looks up at me with those big dark eyes!
I say big "dark" eyes because i still haven't decided what color her eyes are. Sometimes she looks at me and they are unmistakeably brown. Other times they are a deep dark olive green!

She has the most beautiful golden curly locks! I have no idea where they come from but they sure are gorgeous!

She is happy 95% of the time and is throwing huge tantrums the other 5%.

She is the biggest cuddle queen ever and loves to give loves.

She is the child of one million facial expressions, which I can never seem to capture on camera...

She has the sneakiest eyes. She thinks she can get away with anything. 

(I am on to you child!)

Her favorite song to sing is "I Love to See the Temple" She asks for "Da teempoo song" every night before she goes to bed and she sings right along with me to every word. There is nothing sweeter! I promise!!

She loves going for walks in the stroller to pick up Riley from the bus stop, its her favorite time of day!

Every time she sneezes she says, "Kenna's ok! I'm ok!" and every time someone sneezes she has to ask and make sure they are ok!

Her favorite things in the world are her "mimi" (blanket) and her thumb. I dont know how anyone of us would survive if she didnt have either!

Sweetness aside she is one tough cookie! Nothing phases her. Even when she takes a hard fall to concrete and her teeth split her lip...

She is very open and not shy at all. She will talk your ear off no matter who you are!

She already has a very nurturing mothering personality and loves to carry dolls around. She makes sure they are wrapped tightly in blankets and she rocks them and pats their back. I can not wait to see how she reacts to her little brother when he gets here!

To top all this off she is IMPATIENT! This child puts me to shame... We are working on it.

Happy birthday Makenna! I love you so much!

It Finally Happened...

( I am trying to figure out my picture thing right now. Why when you enter them through blogger do they look so crappy and when you try to put them through photobucket and resize them so they dont take up the whole page it does it not work?? HELP!)

...She grew up.

I cant believe it.

She is sitting in her kindergarten class right now probably having so much fun being all grown up and independent and learning.

I am so proud of her!!!

Thank you pinterest for this idea! I don't have a printer that works so I had to do it a little differently than the picture that keeps floating around pinterest but it turned out perfect. (I think)

We have been in Utah for a week and the whole time she talked about how when we got home she was going to go to kindergarten! 

She was so ready for it!



 I think this is harder on Makenna than it is on Riley! Mak had to watch her play with out her and walk away with out her and we had to leave the school with out her and even an hour later she is still asking for Riley. I hope she adjusts well, I am sure she will once she realizes she gets to have me all to herself all day.

But Riley saw that she felt left out and ran up to her to give her a kiss through the fence! Such a sweet sister!





Good Bye Mom and Dad. Love ya but I'm not gonna miss ya! 

haha

She is SO grown up and I am so proud of how she reacts to change and I am so excited to watch her learn and grow throughout the school years ahead!

Three Days ago my sweet Grandmother passed away.

The last time I was ale to be with her and visit was 3 years ago. Even though she was having health problems and couldn't remember who I was she was still as spunky and had as much personality as I could remember her having when I was young.

I have a lot of memories of her for myself but the one thing I will always remember above all other memories was her sitting in her chair and having Riley Bug, who had just turned two, bring a book to her lap (green eggs and ham) and ask her to read to her. I have never, to this day, see Riley sit as still or be more attentive when a book was being read to her. It was the sweetest thing I have ever seen. I am so glad I was able to be there.

She was an amazing woman with amazing strength and amazing stories to tell. I will always be proud to have her name attached to mine and I am glad I was able to take that same name and attach it to Rileys.

I love you Grandma.

Multi-Tasking And Procrastination

So while everyone is already past their fathers day posts and have moved on well past even their 4th of July it this is the first chance I have had to blog about anything in a while.

So While most people just celebrated Fathers day we celebrated a Birthday for a Bug as well!

We had a little party for her on Saturday with some of her friends and she she had a BLAST! I was kind of a mess being pregnant and with morning sickness that wont give it a rest but it was all worth it to see that little girl so dang happy!

She LOVED being the center of attention.

Its kind of her thing ;)

Mak of course needs a little love too!

But most of the attention was focused on Bug.

I didn't get many pictures since I was too busy running around like a crazy person but we had fun!

They played pin the tail on the donkey, fished for their party favors and treats, opened presents and ate some cake!

Then on Sunday morning we had early church so we had to wake up early to give daddy his present form the girls and give Riley her big gift from us!

We didn't capture the excitement as it happened (of course we didn't we stink at those kind of things...) but she was jumping up and down and couldn't have been more happy!

Of course she needed to take it out for a quick ride before we had to start getting ready for church!

She LOVED it!

Dale sporting his gift from the girls! Riley took me in the sports store and picked this shirt out all by herself and was so happy when he put it on and loved it!

She said to me on Saturday night...

Mom am I 5?

Me: you will be tomorrow bug! 

R: But Mom I already had a birthday party and blew out the candles and so now I am 5!

M: Yes I know but that was just a party with your friends. Tomorrow you will see your grandmas and grandpas and they will sing to you again and you will be 5.

R: But mom that means I will be SIX!  If we sing to me again I will be six.

M: No bug you will still be 5!

R: No mom I will be SIX!!

M: K bug whatever...

Hahahaha

She is an amazing little girl. She is so smart and witty and clever. She isn't fooled by any attempt to distract her from anything. She knows what she wants and she wont rest until she figures out how to get what she wants. She has a memory unlike anything I have ever seen before. You know how most parents can say "Maybe later" and by then most kids will have forgotten what they wanted in the first place.

NOT THIS CHILD! 

She remembers EVERYTHING! 

She makes sure every day has its own challenges and excitement. She is something else.

I love this little girl so much.

Cant wait to watch her as she grows. She is a force to be reckoned with.

Unfortunately we didn't get to do much for this man because we were so occupied by trying to make Bugs birthday a memorable one but we did get to go out to dinner and he got a couple gifts.
A week or so early he got an Apple T.V. from me and had plenty of fun experimenting and having fun with that and then on that Sunday morning Riley was able to surprise him with the gift (the PHX Suns shirt) from her and Mak that she picked out all by herself!

This man is an amazing father. I cant believe how good he is sometimes. It cant be possible for a man to be as a good a father as he is to our girlies. He loves them so much and never lets a day go by without smothering the girls with kisses and love. He has so much fun with them. I cant wait to see him interact with our little man that's on his way.

What We've Got

We Have...

 We have...

We have...

Dream Weaver

What is it about dreams that can make or break a day.

Honestly I have never had one that made my day. I can not remember one dream I have had that I have woken up and felt like it was a fun or happy dream.

My psyche must just be dark and gruesome because i really only have dreams that I guess would be considered nightmares.

Some dreams i wake up from and i am scared.

Some I wake up from and I am MAD. Dale hates when I have these dreams because the anger is usually directed at him and although I know its just a dream for some reason my logic brain cant take over enough to make me not mad at dale for the rest of the day. I don't get REALLY mad at him but sometime i just feel a little twinge of anger come out at me through out the day. its so strange.

Some dreams I wake up from sad. Like one I had last week. I wont repeat it but i woke up crying and couldn't stop crying for almost a half hour.  And I had one related it that dream last night. I didn't cry but i haven't been able to shake the images from my mind.

Do dreams affect other people like this or is it just my weak emotions that take dreams and turn them into something they shouldn't? I have had these kind of dreams since I was around 6 yrs old. The first dream i could remember was a bad one and it was a recurring dream for at least 3 years.

I HATED it.

I always wondered what it would be like to have a happy dream. Be Cinderella for a night. Man, that princess was full of crap.

The dreams I have had lately I have tried to pin them on the "weird pregnancy dreams" rule but to be be honest they aren't totally different than what I experience on a normal basis.

Maybe I should just buy a dream catcher and see if that does anything.

In a Million Years

Never in a million years did I see myself with Daughters.

Boys were all I knew.

If you knew me anytime before high school, you know what I am talking about.

Tomboy to the extreme.

I always swore that when I got married I only wanted boys. No girls for me. I knew that it wasn't really up to me but i couldn't help but wish. 

Girls terrified me. Literally. When I found out that Bug was of the female variety I was TERRIFIED. I don't think I told one person, even Dale.

My thoughts were something along the line of:

I cant raise this child to be a confident woman when I have no confidence as a woman myself. I can fake it but its not there. I wont be able to dress her fashionably. I wont be able to do her hair. or teach her how to do her hair. I wont be able to show her the affection a little girl needs.

I was full of doubts. Lots and lots of doubts.

Dale says I jinxed us. That we will only ever have girls because of my wishes. haha

Maybe that's true. They sure are cute though aren't they??

Seriously.

My fears have been subdued. I love my girls and as they have grown and as I grow to know them better, bit by bit, things become a little clearer to me.

The funny thing is, i know we make cute girls but if someone had told me 6 years ago that I would get 3 offers in one month from families with 3 kids or more, have all boys and all are pregnant and due before the end of the year, that if we have a girl (which apparently is likely) and they have their boys, that we should switch.

 None of them serious of course but hilarious none the less! 3 people offering up their children to switch!

I cant get over it!